Support from GM Rony and the Miracles of Lord Jesus Christ Accompany My Academic Journey
As I type this testimony, I have just completed my graduation assessment. My academic status has changed from ‘active student’ to ‘graduate.’ I never expected to reach this point. At one time, I had doubts about continuing my master’s studies. I once asked GM Rony during a Zoom session about whether I should continue studying or not. I remember GM did not forbid it at all. Instead, GM seemed happy with the idea. If I remember correctly, GM said it was important to have aspirations. After that Zoom session, miracles started happening. The Lord Jesus Christ is truly miraculous. I could study in a place and manner that I never imagined.
Not even one semester into my studies, GM passed away. At that time, I felt like my dreams flew away and disappeared. My motivation vanished. Furthermore, the course materials became increasingly difficult, and I had no discussion partners to help. When it came time to register for the second and third semesters, I almost didn’t register because I was afraid I couldn’t handle it. My classmates were actually very capable. But since their research areas were different from mine and we had different learning styles, discussions didn’t quite connect. I often felt alone. I also felt inferior because their research progress was faster, and they still had time to travel.
At one point, in the third semester, everything felt increasingly heavy, and I felt alone. I felt the need for help. Whether it be a friend to talk to, a discussion partner, a fellow struggler for mutual support, or something similar. Desperately, I asked, “When can we struggle together? I’m tired of being alone.”
I suddenly heard GM’s distinctive voice, which I missed, saying, “Well, you’ve been struggling with me all along.”
My tears flowed even more, but they were no longer tears of sadness. I felt foolish for missing that detail. Hadn’t I affirmed and meditated every day? Hadn’t I testified when GM had just passed away that I heard GM’s voice saying, “I’m not going anywhere. In fact, I’m closer to you”? Hadn’t the Lord Jesus Christ granted many of my other prayers?
Since then, I slowly became more enthusiastic. In the fourth semester, I was determined to graduate without a thesis exam. In the middle of the fourth semester, the opportunity started to appear. The required documents were in hand. However, I had a miscommunication with the admin handling it. Because of my carelessness, I feared not graduating on time because the process took longer than I expected. Additionally, there were other issues outside of my studies that made me disappointed in myself. Once again, when I cried that night (the day after GM’s birthday), I heard GM’s voice gently ask, “Why are you crying?” Then HN assured me that the Lord Jesus Christ would definitely help.
I even asked my family to help pray that I could graduate on a certain date, hoping it would give me more confidence. Praise the Lord Jesus Christ, that prayer was answered! I could indeed graduate without a thesis exam. My thesis grade came out quickly. On the exact date I had hoped for, I successfully completed my graduation assessment. That night, I immediately typed this testimony. Slowly, I began to courageously rebuild my dreams.
Thank you, Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank you, GM Rony Irianto.
Kadek Emik – Bali
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DUKUNGAN GM RONY DAN MUKJIZAT TUHAN YESUS KRISTUS MENYERTAI PERJALANAN STUDI SAYA
Saat testimoni ini diketik, saya baru saja melaksanakan yudisium. Status studi saya berubah dari ‘mahasiswa aktif’ menjadi ‘lulus kuliah’. Saya tidak menyangka bisa sampai di titik ini. Dulu, saya sempat ragu untuk lanjut studi magister. Saya sempat bertanya pada GM Rony waktu zoom, tentang pertimbangan apakah boleh lanjut studi atau sebaiknya tidak. Saya ingat GM sama sekali tidak melarang. Malah GM seperti senang dengan ide itu. Kalau tidak salah GM bilang penting untuk punya cita-cita. Setelah zoom itu mulai banyak mukjizat. Tuhan Yesus Kristus ajaib sekali. Saya bisa kuliah di tempat dan dengan cara yang tidak pernah saya duga.
Belum genap satu semester saya menjadi mahasiswa, GM berpulang. Saat itu saya merasa cita-cita saya ikut terbang dan menghilang. Motivasi saya lenyap. Terlebih materi perkuliahan makin sulit dan saya tidak punya teman diskusi yang bisa membantu. Sampai-sampai waktu registrasi semester 2 dan 3 saya hampir tidak melakukan registrasi karena takut tidak sanggup. Teman-teman seangkatan saya sebenarnya hebat-hebat. Tapi karena ranah penelitiannya tidak ada yang serupa dengan saya dan kami beda gaya belajar, diskusinya jadi tidak nyambung. Saya sering merasa sendirian. Saya juga minder karena progres penelitian mereka lebih cepat, bahkan masih sempat jalan-jalan.
Hingga pada suatu titik, di semester 3, saya merasa semuanya makin berat dan saya sendirian. Saya merasa membutuhkan bantuan. Entah itu berupa teman curhat, teman diskusi, teman seperjuangan yang bisa saling mendukung, atau semacamnya.
Saya bertanya dengan putus asa, “Kapan boleh berjuang bareng? Capek sendirian”.
Saya tiba-tiba dengar suara GM dengan nada khasnya yang saya rindukan, bilang, “Lho, selama ini kan berjuangnya sama Saya.”
Tangis saya makin keras, tapi bukan lagi tangis sedih. Saya merasa bodoh melewatkan detail itu. Bukankah tiap hari saya afirmasi dan meditasi? Bukankah saat GM baru berpulang saya pernah testimoni kalau saya dengar suara GM bilang, “Saya nggak ke mana-mana kok. Malah makin dekat dengan kalian”? Bukankah Tuhan Yesus Kristus sudah banyak mengabulkan doa-doa saya yang lain?
Sejak itu saya pelan-pelan makin semangat. Di semester 4, saya bertekad untuk lulus tanpa ujian tesis. Di pertengahan semester 4, peluang itu mulai terlihat. Berkas yang disyaratkan sudah di tangan. Ternyata saya malah ada miss komunikasi dengan admin yang mengurusi hal tersebut. Karena kecerobohan saya itu, saya sempat takut tidak lulus tepat waktu karena prosesnya jadi lebih lama dari perkiraan saya. Belum lagi ada masalah lain di luar studi yang membuat saya kecewa pada diri saya. Lagi-lagi, saat saya nangis malam itu (H+1 ulang tahun GM), saya dengar suara GM bertanya dengan nada lembut, “Kenapa nangis?”. Lalu HN meyakinkan kalau Tuhan Yesus Kristus pasti membantu.
Saya sampai minta keluarga inti untuk bantu mendoakan agar saya bisa lulus di tanggal sekian, niatnya agar saya lebih yakin. Puji Tuhan Yesus Kristus, doa itu terkabul! Saya sungguhan bisa lulus tanpa ujian tesis. Nilai tesis saya cepat keluarnya. Tepat di tanggal yang saya inginkan tersebut, saya berhasil yudisium. Kemudian malamnya saya langsung ngetik testimoni ini. Pelan-pelan saya mulai berani menata kembali cita-cita saya.
Terima kasih Tuhan Yesus Kristus.
Terima kasih GM Rony Irianto.
Kadek Emik – Bali
